4.21.2014

A Personal Trip :: Cambria

I'm an introvert, and as such, I've never felt embarrassed or ashamed to be seen alone. I usually go out to dinner or happy hour by myself at least once every few weeks; it's my happy time, my time to recharge and just be

Last week was hard, you guys. I don't need to give details, but just believe when I say that I'm not being dramatic here; it was hard. Like, maybe the hardest week I've ever experienced. Character building, I suppose? But that doesn't make it any easier. 

After coffee with two of my dearest girlfriends, I realized what I needed to do for my sanity and my confidence and my marriage: I needed to get away. And I don't mean just getting dinner alone or staying with a friend or even taking a day off. I needed a vacation. I needed a personal few days. 

We're lucky enough to live near Santa Barbara and visit Santa Ynez wine country quite often, so that was out. Ojai was too close. Los Angeles too crowded and too familiar. I needed somewhere that was near enough to drive in a few hours, but somewhere I could experience all on my own for the first time. 

Lucky enough, the Central Coast is only a three hour drive from our little bubble, and I knew where I needed to be. 
Cambria. I'm fairly certain that this little slice of California, secluded and next-to-untouched, is one of the most breathtaking and reinvigorating places in the world. At least, in my world. 

I stayed at a little inn right on the beach. I drank wine on the patio, wrapped in a blanket, and wrote in my journal while listening to the waves crash. I rented a bicycle and did some wine tasting. I ate a lot of clams. I walked along the beach, taking in the chill in the air and thought about what I believed in, what would fulfill me in this life, what I need to change to be satisfied and feel good about myself. 

I left with a new sense of me. Corny? Sure, but it's the truth. When you spend forty-eight hours in a beautiful place, alone, left to stew in the thoughts of right and wrong and the idea that maybe life isn't so black and white, it's impossible not to change your outlook. Things aren't fixed, really, but I have a better idea of what I need to do in order to fix me. I don't know that I'm going to feel better right away, but at least I'm on my way

5 comments:

Joelle Duff said...

Beautiful picture.

Joelle Duff said...

That sounds amazing; we all need some time to ourselves every so often. And I truly believe a new place is the perfect location for such a thing!

Joelle Duff said...

Love, love, love LOVE this. I've been realizing lately that I'm totally an introvert as well. There have been a few times since getting married that I've thought I could really use some quality alone time. But I'm alone most of the day while I'm working so I've always felt like it would be selfish or something to leave Erik by himself or do something without him that I know he would enjoy (which I know sounds ridiculous). But when you said you needed to discover a new place by yourself that really struck a chord with me. You may have just given me the motivation to get out and do something by myself every once in a while :) But now I'm also insanely jealous that you live so close to these gorgeous places! I think I need to come back to CA ;)

Joelle Duff said...

I admire you so much for getting out of town ON YOUR OWN and taking time for yourself. Cambria is one of the most beautiful places in California and I loved going up there when I was little.

Joelle Duff said...

It really was so much fun! I really don't mind traveling on my own - it can be fun if you have that type of personality :)