Today is Tuesday. For some reason, this week, Tuesday is turning out to be much more difficult that Monday. It took all the energy I had to get out of bed this morning, and that was after hitting the snooze button five times.
Anyway, if we were having coffee together this morning, I would tell you how I purged my Facebook last night and how good I felt about it after. I deleted so many people, not necessarily because I didn't like them, but because I just haven't talked to them in so long. I made myself a rule as well: if it takes me more than a few seconds to remember who a person is, they gotta go. While this made me feel much better about life {for some strange reason}, I'm not nearly as brave as my friend who deleted her Facebook all together this past weekend. No, that's much too ambitious for me.
I want to thank all of you, by the way, for listening to my mini rants and being with me while I'm trying to figure this crazy world out. It's truly amazing though, how just writing things down can help you realize so much about yourself. I had {another} epiphany yesterday, as I was thinking about what it means to eliminate all forms of unecessary stress from my life.
I realized that I am an adult {wait, when did that happen?}. I have a husband and we support ourselves. I have a real, grown-up job. We have our own little apartment. I like wine and I went to bed at 9:30 last night.
I've been concerned with what other people think for as long as I can remember. For most of my life, my main motivation has been to make sure that people like me. I realized yesterday, however, that none of them matter. People from college; the people that I barely spoke to and yet are so concerned about what they think, don't matter. The people from high school that I haven't seen in six years don't matter.
There's a great quote by Dr. Seuss {of all people}: Those who mind, don't matter, and those who matter, don't mind.
What an amazing way to think! After giving this idea more thought, I realized how true it is. I have a husband; someone who will always be on my side, and who loves me more than anything. I have my best friends who are always there; who give me more love and support than I deserve. I have a family that is actually proud of what I've accomplished in my life.
And I have all of you, who take precious time out of your day to read this little blog. You are all so supportive, and what all of you think is much more important than what some inconsequential person that I haven't spoken to in years thinks.
So, thank you for helping me realize what it's finally feels like to not care. I am who I am, and if someone minds, then they obviously don't matter.
Thanks for listening {again}. You are all wonderful, beautiful people, and I feel privileged to call you all my friends.
Much love,