I'm having one of those moments.
It's gone on longer than a day, so it's not just one of those days.
We all have our moments. Sometimes they are good moments. Sometimes they are not so good moments.
My moment is of the not-so-good variety. I'm happy, don't get me wrong. I'm just...
Scared?
Intimidated?
Jealous?
Insecure?
Anxious?
Or, all of the above.
I don't want this blog to turn into a platform for my many {many} complaints in life. But if you've noticed my lack of personal posts recently, this is why. All of those reasons above have prevented me, each in their own way, of writing anything of real substance here.
I wonder if there is any room for me in this world. Me and my big dreams.
If you've known me {or read this blog} for any amount of time, you know that I have dreams.
And they are big.
But...
Is there really a place for my blog?
Am I really any good at this thing called writing?
Would the world actually want to read my book?
Could I really make money from planning weddings?
Should I even try to decorate my apartment, when I know that I can't even compete with all of the pretty places I see elsewhere?
Right now, I don't need your encouragement. I don't need your support or even kind words, though they would be greatly appreciated nonetheless.
I guess I just need your understanding.
I'm trying to work through this...life-block {kind of like writer's block, but consuming every aspect of my life}.
I want to write what's on my mind. And today, this is what is on my mind. Hopefully it isn't on my mind for much longer.
I found this though. I think it makes me feel better.
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I still love you all. I promise.