I've been stressing over a lot of things lately, but one of my main issues right now is how messy my home is. I've been too busy to really do much cleaning these days, and I feel bad that my husband has to deal with it (though he doesn't seem to mind much). I also feel embarrassed, even if nobody is coming over or seeing it...I guess that's part of blogging. We put our best selves out there, but it's not always the truth. Margaret posted the other day about her "real life", and it got me thinking...am I just embarrassed about my home because of what people might think if they saw it?
I don't have the perfect home, at all, in case you're wondering. I hate our apartment complex, which is old and not very pretty to look at. I've tried to make the inside of our apartment look pretty, but I just don't always have time to keep it clutter free. I may be organized with my business, but I don't always have time to keep my own life organized. Don't believe me?
My poor dog has to share her favorite seat with a table, at least until I get my office space to store it at (which is happening sooner rather than later). Not only that, but I still haven't put back up the curtains that fell down the other day, or taken down my already pathetic Valentine's Day decorations...
There are a lot of things contributing to my stress these days, and I think a big part of it is just not prioritizing. Having a home that I like to be in is important to me, and I've spent a lot of time and money getting it to that point. Not only that, but my messy home kind of symbolizes my personal life in general right now. Business-wise, things are going amazingly well! But I think I need to re-prioritize things a bit, and get my personal life in order as well. I know that my home won't always be neat and clean, but I can at least try a little bit harder. I can work harder on making dinner for my husband and I, and focus on our relationship a little more, because that's the one that matters. If that means turning the computer off at six every night, then that's what I need to do.
I'll probably be blogging about this a little more in the upcoming weeks and months. Finding that balance between my personal and professional life is really one that I'm struggling with, but it's really so important that I do. To me, it's non-negotiable.
I'll probably be blogging about this a little more in the upcoming weeks and months. Finding that balance between my personal and professional life is really one that I'm struggling with, but it's really so important that I do. To me, it's non-negotiable.