I'm going to get serious on you for a minute, so bear with me. I'm having a difficult time flushing through all the things floating around in my head, and the easiest way for me to navigate what I'm feeling and what I'm thinking is to write it down.
I know what I want to be when I grow up. A writer. A designer. A blogger. A mom. I want to be creative and inspiring and happy. I want to be a published author. I want to create weddings and parties and events. I want to live intentionally and be satisfied with my life.
I change my mind like you change your clothes. I have so many ideas in my head, that I've even labeled myself as someone who never follows through. I have a thousand goals, but I don't know how to get there. My recent idea to post a goal on my blog is the first step in trying to achieve those goals, and I will post, but so many are just abstract concept without even a concrete definition. For example, I want to live creatively. WTF does that mean? I know that I want to do it, but I have no idea how to do it.
Too bad life coaches are so expensive. I need one.
I just need help understanding what I want to do and who I want to be. It's hard to move toward something when you don't know what you're moving toward.
Right now, money is my biggest obstacle. I can't quit my job to cook and blog and write and plan weddings because those things don't make me money. And I don't know how to make money off of them. I know it's possible, but I don't know how. Even if I did know how, I highly doubt I would make as much money as I do now.
At this point in my life, I have such a broad idea of what I want "my career" to be, that I can't even start working toward my dream career. I know that it involves being a stay-at-home/work-from-home mom, blogger, writer, and anything else that I find myself interested in. I just saw an article that someone published about being a virtual assistant. Are you kidding? I could do that in a heartbeat. I know that I could probably do freelance writing too, especially since my formal title at my current job is "technical writer." But again, I don't know how to get into these areas.
So where do I go from here? I have no freaking clue. Do any of you have an idea? Or a place where I can go to figure this out? Any resources or books that might help? I'm desperate.
Why does life have to be so confusing?